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i am so ready for friday!!! memphis in may is coming!
wtf can this week go by any freaking slower.....

at least i dont have to be at work til 10 tomorrow but i have to work late as hell...end of the month blows....

to tired to blog anymore

sorry to bore ya


flying high looking down on the little things that take from my dream state of mind....i will figure it out one day

love....

love is a starry eyed tummy tingle rush of emotions explosion..
have u ever felt it?

time consumes me

tick tock
one thing i hate is someone "saying give it time"
but yet i find myself saying it all the time to others...
does that make me a hypocrite?
hmmmm
i wonder

daydreaming again

one day......

my heart tickles

sitting here with the sun peeping its way threw the building...i squint my eyes..
listening to music, i feel butterflies surrounding my heart.

not sure what this means,
but i do
know one thing
i couldnt duplicate this feeling.
so
embrace me ...surround me...
AS THE RUSH COMES.

skye loves jeska

the best part well actually the only good part of waking up early is seeing the sky on my drive into work... sometimes it can be breathtaking....
lalalalalalala
The week is almost over...this being here at 6 am really sucks...so ready to go back to getting here at 8.

ya know i havent been having any time to read my book lately, i got soooo much on my mind these days.. still on chapter 3 of frostbite..
this week i have no time because one min i am up and not tired and the other i am passing out rather quickly and sudden.

my jeska is out of town and i am getting up to be at work at 6 b/c thats her job. and i am being sweet..hahah i miss her, she makes work fun sometimes...even though last week she was mad at me thinking i was hanging with rhonda to much...heehee she told me all that when she was drunk at her wedding...she was soooo hilarious.. (ok jes there was your moment of fame in my blog..ya happy!)
awwwww
shit i am falling asleep at my desk..i am bout to leave soon. hopefully play some xbox tonight...

~i miss the rush of the ocean...i wish i could find away to go this year.... outlook not looking so hot.

overcast would be nice

i am yawning...as i am typing..i have been up since 5:20 and i have been doing 3 peoples jobs all damn day..
still have 1 hr and 1/2 to go.
ok so let me recap a few things:
1st jeska had her wedding which was great! she looked so pretty..and of course she was completly drunk at the end of the night.. its was pretty amusing..
and yesterday i went to go shoot a gun at the range... ok so let me start by saying i have shot a gun like out the car window and out in a field and shit,,but not like this..it was GREAT!!! i am now in love with it.. obsessed.
i have been thinking about it all day.
i want to go back..
it was just a good stress relief thing, and i liked feeling scared and in control and focused on one thing all at once.
i wanted to go buy another gun and go all the time.. and practice to get better.
its wayyyy better than video games , which i seem to like because of the guns and stuff like that.. nucular weapons type stuff..but this was so much fun..
ok enough of my gun rant..

i am so ready to get the hell out of here..i dont want to get off and go straight to bed b/c then i will be back to damn soon..i just wanna go home and relax..
ok so i am done for today, back to work...mother fucker....its sucks

~
sometimes a person can say something so right... it makes me twinkle a little brighter that day.

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well well well

here i am finally blogging and i am not at freaking work!!!!!!
i feel like this little anime sometimes..i thought it was cute..

so i am sitting here watching someone eles play xbox...wanting to grab the xbox and fly out the house and take it to mine..but i cant..blahhhhh

anyway i like marcus on gears of war...hes attitude is great!!
ok
lets see here lately i have been back to writting poetry. ( in my books) and i have gone back to writting the book i started like 5mts ago..
so thats a plus..
all i want to do is have a small poetry book published just like my great g maw did..i dont even care if it doesnt sell a single copy..
just the accomplishment of doing it is all i need..

so heres a random question
have u ever sneezed and pee ed a little? i did once and it was sooo freaking funny..it became a chain reaction..me and my friend both ended up doing it.. i wonder if that happens to men..hmmm anyone know the answer??

hahahah i am just rambling but i havent in a while so i figured what the hell
i should be reading FROSTBITE but i have had wayyy to much going on to focus on that.
but now i think i figured it all out for the most part..

ooooo yeah JESKA's wedding is saturday!! all the chicks i work with will be in full effect so watch out!!! yes i mainly mean u hot stuff DONNA!!! my soon to be church groupee.. ( you have no idea what i am talking bout except if u are her ) and no we DONT attend church..

ok here i go blabbing about bullshit no one knows about...

well on that note

-i wondered out on a cloud today looking to see if it was still there...every day i get up and see and every day i sigh in relief that it hasnt gone off again...

signs

i really hope today isnt hell at work.. if you wanna get a since of what i do ..watch office space.
it pretty much sums it up.
heheeh
so last night i was baking cookies and i went up to the attic - i was looking for this book i had. well i moved this box to the side to look around- 1st off i have a phobia of spiders so the thought of me up in attic by myself makes me have a panic attack.. so there i was in my boxers and t shirt with no damn shoes on -just all open for the spiders to sink thier teeth into my flesh lol- digging around old boxes.. i finally found the book i was looking for and then i slipped. catching myself i hit the box that i had moved and it fell down the ladder and landed open side down spilling everything out.
i went down and what i found was a bunch of old pictures and things i havent thought of in yrs.
a few things seemed very weird.
anyway i am not going into all that but my point is that keep in mind i was baking cookies..
at this point i realized it and they were burnt to a crisp..and i never burn my cookies...
some things just seem like points of life that happen for a reason..like there are signs of your life all around..it just depends on you to notice them..

this may not make a bit of sence to you..but its a blog for me not you..heheh

i just felt like i should write this all down

-she talks about him like he put the stars in the sky....

silly...

this makes me laugh...
hope it does for u 2

wonderwall has been knocked down

i have been enjoying the storms lately, and the thought of the heat in summer makes me wanna go to alaska .
so i have been thinking about the number changing thing and i am not sure if i am going to yet..just depends.
ok so i feel kind of different today than usual like something i have been holding in and pondering on isnt there anymore..
i got a lot out yesterday- so stuff thats been sitting in the back of my mind haunting me. and now i dont feel it there anymore.
hmmmm
maybe thats a good thing...
i have a new feeling now- more like a sense of hope-comfort-forgivness
-to be calm is the highest achievement of the self
i sound like a fortune cookie..hehe

meow

loveable

i want a love that his voice moves mountains
doesnt have to sing but hes words make me tingle...

i want to be his star
and to be called beautiful

put a twinkle in his eyes every time he looks my way

i want to feel safe by his presence
and be confident that hes not going to leave...ever

so i wait in slience with the paitence i DONT really have at all
anticipating his arrival...

maybe today will be the day......
or
maybe never

thoughts

fear silences me

i have waited forever and now i cant find the words

woke up...

feeling as if i woke up on the correct side of the bed..
thinking about changing my number...
and i also really feel drained...i do accts rec and freight payables and data entry-invoice stuff-mailing- ca orders and containers...that is like 5 positions at work..

hopefully soon i will get moved to acct rec. and do just a few others..
i am soooo sick of the actual job i am supposed to be doing.. bout time for a change...
but damn not like 5 at one time..

anyway back to the reason why i woke up on the right side of the bed or shall i say "correct"
i just came to a conclusion today that certain people shouldnt be in my life anymore..i will leave it at that..
and if i want you in it i will give u my new number..
if not its been nice knowning ya and dont take it personal unless you think you should..( which some should)
gotta get back to slaving ..holla balla

tired of it

I am so tired today...didnt go to bed til late last night, once again,,i cant seem to sleep lately.
i feel like i need to vent today...i am half asleep this morning and the last thing i want is someone talking to me and judging me at 8 am..
sometimes its better to keep your mouth shut then keep rambling...

like now for instance..i dont and will not go into details for that very reason...
but some people need to back off and get over it..ITS MY LIFE and i will do what i want..when and how i want... thats all you need to know..take that with a grain and salt and smile..

-went to bed watching twilight for like the 10th day.. i cant seem to stop..
i have soooo much on my mind right now...
thank god for coffee
or i would be passed OUT by now..
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i wish i could fly..fly away from here and go to forks.where it is breathtaking ...someone please take me away from here.. i feel as if i am missing something from my life STILL!
cant fill the void that i try so hard to figure out..
this isnt where i am supposed to be ..but where i stay just for convience.
i want to stand on a mountain and feel the rush of the ocean any day i please..because they are in reach of me not so far away like now...

here i go rambling again..

-
the tides take me away and i am prepared because i know how to swim..

peace